While out hiking there is only one thing you have to do. Walk. Ok, so you set up camp, eat and use the privy, but your only goal for the day is to walk to your intended destination. It’s easy and your mind is in general ease. There isn’t a bunch of clutter in your brain, or maybe there is, but it isn’t pressing and can’t bother you too much.
And then somehow you come back into the real world and you are bombarded with so many options. You can do this or that or both and then throw in something else and it is easy to get overwhelmed. I don’t even have a job or a ‘life’ yet and I’m already overwhelmed by living ahead of myself. Somehow I’ve already put myself months from now, not even a week, and have saddled myself with bags too heavy to carry.
Yesterday we drove over 600 miles for a job interview. On the way down and on the way back I thought about our goals, mine and ours as couple, and realized that I really have to stop jumping into the future. Stop worrying about how I’m going to handle everything I want to do and get it all done. Because, it won’t all get done.
Some of my ideas of living in the now are going to be turning off the electronics. Yes, Chris is going to be thinking that I am not going to be able to do this, but I will. We already don’t watch much television and I prefer to watch movies while crocheting or working on photos, but in general we aren’t mindlessly watching it. The internet however has to be limited on the days and nights that I want to accomplish something. I know I’m not the only one out there who aimlessly surfs, looking at creative sites or reading Facebook updates. I’ve already started downscaling my blog reader. Gone are the blogs that have somehow become too commercial or too focused on an aspect of creativity that I’m not into anymore. Really, don’t need to read about a zillion giveaways; that’s one of the most disappointing aspects of a few very talented blogs.
I’m going to focus on finishing one or two projects before thinking further about other ideas. I can queue a bazillion projects on Ravelry but I know I will only make a few. I am going to develop my own style further in photography. Find that niche that I love and get really good at it. I am going to hone my pencil and pastel skills and ditch the other mediums unless I feel a play day coming on. And scrapbooking—I am thinking of selling or donating most of my stash! Hello easy photo books!
And so now I am thinking about “Now”. I can’t place myself in an imaginary place that doesn’t exist yet or a job that I don’t have. Why not take action and get focused on what I can do now? I went back to the four goals and putting them in now. Tomorrow and next year I will look back and wonder why I didn’t do anything.
Slightly related, instead of saying ‘oh next time’ I decided to jump in and buy some organic and cruelty free makeup. I already bought Alba and Avalon face lotion because I found it at Bed Bath and Beyond and with their coupons it made it a bit cheaper, but I wasn’t sure what kind of makeup to get. I did find Physicians Formula organic makeup and I think I am going to go with that for now. I was about to buy another brand but saw it was made in China and decided to pass on that. Time to be responsible and take action for what I actually believe in.
On the agenda in the next few days: work on the rest of the Trail Tales stories, get ready for camping over Labor Day and for our road trip and send out more resumes!
Here’s to NOW!